Thursday, February 11, 2010

To he who must not be named


At some ‘lucky moments’ in your lives, you might have met some difficult people. They have this capability to ruin your day. They get mad (as in “mad”) even when you’re not doing anything offensive against them. They make big stories out of you, talks negatively at your back, try to manipulate, lie, make sounds when they pass by and do anything and everything to annoy you. They just won’t stop until they see you quit. People like these are egocentric and deeply insecure. They can only get a sense of confidence from stepping on other people’s shoes. They can only feel sense of worth by putting other people down. (And take note, they don't understand the word PROFESSIONALISM, they might not have encountered the word on 'vocabulary lesson' during their elementary days). These type of people are toxic; worst, they are virus that would infest you until you go down to your knees and get frustrated. They want you to feel the same way as their pathetic life.

I pity them. I pity these people a lot. I pity their pathetic life.

What else should you do to these people? Pray for them. Don’t get too much affected and emotional because if you do, you lose, they win. But be assertive. Let them know that their life sucks. But let me warn you, these creep won’t understand. They are too self-absorbed that they won’t care about what other people say. But you still have to tell them, straight to their faces. Who knows, they might come back to their senses.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Ubiquitous


In my dreams, I see you
In my waking hours, I think of you
In my memory, I nurture you
Beneath the moon
Under the stars
Beyond the clouds
At the hill top
By the seashore
I see you
I keep you
In my heart
Forever
I love you…



Tuesday, January 5, 2010

First Morning of 2010…

... I surrendered my life to Jesus. Again. 

(I could feel the music playing...

Times of refreshing,
Here in Your presence;
No greater blessing
Than being with You.
 
My soul is restored,
My mind is renewed;
There’s no greater joy Lord,
Than being with You.

My soul is  restored,
My mind is renewed;
There’s no greater joy  Lord                                                   
Than  being with You.
)


Through the counseling of Ptr Jessie, I talked to God earnestly.
That was the time I felt his overwhelming presence again.
Have I been so stubborn over the past years that I overlooked the significance of His presence in my life? 

What keeps me away from trusting the Lord?
Last Sunday, during our Singles Fellowship, we talked about trusting the Lord. According to Ptr Rick Warren, we will be able to please God by trusting him completely… It’s easy to say that you trust the Lord but proving it lays the problem. How could you trust somebody you don’t know fully well? Trust is built from familiarity and closeness. If I ask you as to whom among your friends you trust most. You would think of your closest friend or your best friend. You trust your best friend because his dependability is proven over time.  Doubt has no space between the two of you anymore because you’ve been together for so long that you become at ease with him. Now, if I ask myself the question above, “What keeps me away from trusting the Lord?” I would definitely say DOUBT – doubt keeps me away from trusting the Lord completely.  I always tend to doubt him. I doubt his promises, his being a Sovereign God, his being Omnipresent and Omniscient. I doubt the fact that His ways are better than my ways. I doubt his plans for me. I doubt so many things about Him. This doubt of mine hinders me from trusting the Lord completely, and this same doubt of mine blocks me from experiencing the abundance of His blessings. Doubt roots from a gap or a distance between myself and God. It comes from not knowing Him completely. I would definitely not trust a stranger. But God whether I admit it or not has been a stranger in my life…

Father, forgive me for doubting you. My doubt comes from being away from You. Father, I want our closeness  back. Draw me near to You again. I feel so helpless and incapacitated without you Lord. I feel so lost without You. It’s only You who could fill the voids in my heart. From this moment on Father, I want You to be in complete control of my life…
In Jesus’ name I pray.
Amen.

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Monday, January 4, 2010

Trust that Eases Pain


       At New Year’s Eve, I had a privilege to speak in front of perhaps more than a hundred people in our Church (Holy Trinity Bible Church). I delivered a testimony which I hoped to be life-changing. That was not about me. That was about how the Lord was able to change my father’s perspective about living and dying. Since that was impromptu, I was nervous at first but I felt that the Holy Spirit interceded and I was able to convey my testimony in a manner that glorified God. 
“This is not about me. I am still a work in progress. I stand here to testify about how the Lord was able to change my Father’s life. About two years ago, my father was diagnosed having liver cancer, stage 4. That was so deadly that he was advised that he only had 6 months left in his life… “
       That was the introduction. But I got to tackle everything that my family encountered at the expanse of those two years until today. I told them that whenever we brought father to the hospital for confinement and treatment, we almost had nothing left financially but the Lord with his overflowing goodness poured out his blessings, directed Godly favors, used kindhearted people as instrument, and unlocked resources for us to make use.
“We are physically, emotionally and financially handicapped but God was able to make us whole again.”
      Seeing my father in pain every day is something I can't bear. I feel so down and blue looking at him. But one thing made all the difference. I saw father on another angle. This time, it is not my father enduring the pain and looking so helpless. Rather, it is he with a renewed strength, peace and joy in his heart. This is exactly what I could thank God most of all the blessings he gave me this year. I could never be happier than seeing my father on that set of mind ... He may appear weak but I could feel deep in my heart that he’s as strong as the strongest could ever be, and he’s hopeful and anticipating as he has never been before. It is because he trusted and surrendered his life to Jesus, completely and with all honesty. 

The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusted in him, and I am helped: therefore my heart greatly rejoices; and with my song will I praise him. -- Psalm 28:7

    
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