Trust that Eases Pain

       At New Year’s Eve, I had a privilege to speak in front of perhaps more than a hundred people in our Church (Holy Trinity Bible Church). I delivered a testimony which I hoped to be life-changing. That was not about me. That was about how the Lord was able to change my father’s perspective about living and dying. Since that was impromptu, I was nervous at first but I felt that the Holy Spirit interceded and I was able to convey my testimony in a manner that glorified God. 

“This is not about me. I am still a work in progress. I stand here to testify about how the Lord was able to change my Father’s life. About two years ago, my father was diagnosed having liver cancer, stage 4. That was so deadly that he was advised that he only had 6 months left in his life… “

       That was the introduction. But I got to tackle everything that my family encountered at the expanse of those two years until today. I told them that whenever we brought father to the hospital for confinement and treatment, we almost had nothing left financially but the Lord with his overflowing goodness poured out his blessings, directed Godly favors, used kindhearted people as instrument, and unlocked resources for us to make use.

“We are physically, emotionally and financially handicapped but God was able to make us whole again.”

      Seeing my father in pain every day is something I can't bear. I feel so down and blue looking at him. But one thing made all the difference. I saw father on another angle. This time, it is not my father enduring the pain and looking so helpless. Rather, it is he with a renewed strength, peace and joy in his heart. This is exactly what I could thank God most of all the blessings he gave me this year. I could never be happier than seeing my father on that set of mind ... He may appear weak but I could feel deep in my heart that he’s as strong as the strongest could ever be, and he’s hopeful and anticipating as he has never been before. It is because he trusted and surrendered his life to Jesus, completely and with all honesty. 

The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusted in him, and I am helped: therefore my heart greatly rejoices; and with my song will I praise him. -- Psalm 28:7

    
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